The performance show went very well for all of us Rock Stars here.  " Sweet Dave Navarro" jammed with all of us and that totally made my night. I'm feeling good about going into this elimination show, I feel less and less of any kind of competition factor, as there are less and less contestants. Right now it's just about who fits right into this band and to be honest, I hope it's me.  I think it would be a great message and salute to women in general especially for those about to rock!  I'm definitely feeling some closure towards everyone & everything as this is coming to an end… it's all been one WILD RIDE !!!

See you on Wednesday night!

The Final performance show! I can't believe everything is almost over!! I've been working quite hard trying to get my songs ready because this night is very important at this point. I can't wait to just wail. The four of us left promised each other that we can't leave that stage until we are absolutely spent. And we all want to try and get back to the place where we started in this thing - the root of who we are.

The other night we went out and saw the Red Hot Chili Peppers and Parliament Funkadelic concert. George Clinton is so chill and I loved seeing Bootsy Collins. It was nice to experience people having fun making music with each other. Sometimes I miss that here, there's so much pressure all the time that sometimes it's hard to remember that I just love music so much. I love listening to it, dancing to it, and creating it.
Well, I'll see y’all on TV.

Two more weeks to go and I'm still in this thing… it feels like just barely.  I was in the bottom 3 again this week and I was worried that would be it.  I knew that the only thing that I had left going for me was to knock whatever song INXS gave me out of the park.  I had to tear it apart and I just tried to wail it.  I guess it worked because Jordis ended up getting eliminated.  Sweet, Sweet Jordis, it was very hard to see her go.  I never thought in a million years that I would be the last woman here.  I thought that Jordis would make it to the finale for sure.  I really broke down yesterday when I realized that I'm the last woman in the competition. Humble and honored.  It makes me want to rock even harder for all the women out there.  How cool would it be to have a woman lead singer for INXS ladies?  The feeling in this house gets lonelier & sadder mixed with more excitement about possibly getting this gig.  Four people now and Jordis is surely missed around here.  I could tell that her elimination affected Marty, he seemed sad it happened.  I will miss her saying "good morning McNutts!" every day (that’s what she called me) but I am excited for her career to take off.  I know Jordis is going to have a lot of success in the years to come. 

Yesterday's performance show was very interesting. It really showcased the individual talents of the 5 remaining people here. For one thing, the fans picked our songs, and then we got to sing an original song.

My mini set was ok. For some reason I was nervous when I sang the Bonnie Raitt tune so I didn't settle into it enough. I loved singing the song I wrote with Ty though. I really wanted to make him proud.

I'm really glad that this show is contributing to the people who need it. We all met couples who won an auction of tickets to the show who flew all the way from Chicago to see us perform. That $ went to sick kids. And $ from MSN downloads of our songs this month is going towards helping rebuild the devastation from Hurricane Katrina. I want to do everything I can to help when this is over.

I also want to send my love out to my sister Laura, it’s her birthday on September 7th and I miss her very much, and I love her very much.

 

We all celebrated J.D.'s birthday, and we had a blast.  We all got in a major food fight & sat in the hot tub, and I found out today that I ate some of his cake after he had rubbed his ass in it!!! I feel like I want to puke! It is so disgusting!!! J.D. has assured me that he has a clean ass so I guess it could be worse… Anyways, we also got to pick our songs and it was pretty easy because it was fan request along with an original. My mini-set will be a very mellow one.  But I kinda think that will be nice!

 

Cool, calm, collected and ready to sing some beautiful songs. I'm happy with how rehearsals went for my cover and original tunes. I decided to perform the song that Ty & I wrote called "Soul Life.” And I'm so glad that I did because I love how it sounds, and I love that I get to dedicate the song to Ty, because I still feel his energetic presence in this house.

 

I got a tattoo! It was painful and fun. Marty and Jordis got a circle behind their ears so I wanted to get a circle somewhere on my body as well. It signifies infinity, and ending up where you started off, and just generally will remind us of our time here. So I got a circle around my arm. It is still a little swollen but I think it looks great.

I definitely have it in the back of my head that this whole experience is slowly winding to an end…and where it stops nobody knows!

 

See you on stage!…

Happy birthday to my step-dad Ian, I love you!

So much to write about…
Performance show was a lifetime moment for me…”Bohemian Rhapsody” went very well and the rest of the performances were amazing!!! I even think I saw Marty cry (or almost cry!) It was very touching.
I'm nervous about this week's elimination show…I don't think anyone deserves to go home!!!!

How happy am I right now?? I am singing the greatest song ever at this performance show coming up. I am the happiest girl in the universe.
Last night the whole gang of us performed at Universal City Walk for Star 98.7 radio station and it was a blast! We signed autographs & took tons of pictures & talked to people. It was really fun. I got to perform an INXS song, "Don't Change," and I went on last because that was the song that the band would always perform last in their shows as well. At the end of the song I called Marty, Jordis, Ty, JD and MiG to sing the last chorus with me and it was pretty magical. I am so excited to sing “Bohemian Rhapsody” this week. I feel so honored and lucky to be able to sing such an epic tune.
I CAN'T WAIT!!
See you on TV baby!!

I tried to go into the performance show in a positive frame of mind and it gave me a larger perspective to remember to be strong for my family and my country. I felt like I kicked it! Even if my reign as queen of the bottom 3 continues on Wednesday, I go into it happy that I did my best.

Bottom 3 again…and I am still here…barely. I don't get it. One thing I can say though is that I'm happy with all of my performances up until this point, so I know that I can at least take that with me if I leave here. Another thing that feels cool is that INXS keeps holding onto me. I know that they like me, I just don't know how long they can hold on for. I want to remain confident because I feel like I'm starting to freak out. For everyone out there who has been voting for me…thank you from the bottom of my heart.

We had a songwriting clinic!! I was kind of waiting for that one and it was a great night.  The pool-room-4 team did a fantastic job.  The grand prize was a stereo and dinner out with INXS… and we won!! The songwriting process is such a great one and I had a good time.  Dinner was amazing with INXS, it was nice to just hang out with them as real people, without all the pressure, and they are such a genuine group of guys.  We talked about our families and life.  The other group had to stay home & eat peanut butter sandwiches and I felt really sorry for them because they seemed to have such a hard time during the clinic.  They really didn’t deserve all the drama that they had to go though.  I'm really glad that Ty ended up picking me for his team because I feel like we work well together.  After all we've already written two songs for our band "Tuzie & Sy", and there's another one in the works. Feeling OK about my song this week, it's very Norah Jones feel and I like it.  Right now I'm sitting in the backyard looking at the Hollywood sign & thinking how lucky I am and how cool this place is.

BYE FOR NOW

Bottom three … again! Surprisingly I kind of feel alright about it. The bottom three is a very unique experience. It's almost like after you get called up there, an enormous calm washes over you. Both times I just let all of my insecurities and doubts go and I just got into the music. It's like it's the one time in this experience when I actually show the depth of who I am as a performer. Don't get me wrong -- it's still nerve-racking as hell (and I tried my best not to cry!!).

 

I was SO shocked that I ended up in the bottom three. I thought for sure it would at least include who had made a mistake on the performance night.

Anyway, I'm so happy Ty got the encore. He really deserves every good thing that happens to him. He is a great and hilarious man.

 

Cheers to Brandon "California Rock 'n' Roll" Calhoon who is an amazing person and talent. I am sure I will be hearing his music soon down the road. My next drink's for you, Brandon.

Performance went well … I really think that everyone was happy with how my song went. I know that I was. We really shook that stage up. I felt really great about it.

Feeling more like a rock star then ever… We all got to go to House of Blues and see Dave Navarro in the band “Camp Freddy."

It was so fun! They do covers and they trade off singers. Slash and Dave were on guitar, Mark McGrath and Scott Weiland sang.

I'm a bit nervous about my performance song on Tuesday but hopefully people will like it. The band and I changed the arrangements and I hope that it compliments the song rather than hinders it. I do feel strongly about the lyrics though. I'm excited…we'll see how it goes!!!

Oh my sweet Tara… I will miss you.  Tara Slone was definitely my touchstone in this environment.  I had a really hard time at yesterday’s elimination.  When Tara was called into the bottom three, I knew that was probably it for her.  Three strikes and you’re out I guess?  She sang “Beautiful Girl” and that’s when my water works began.  It was so beautiful… I think she had a feeling she was leaving so she kind of used it as a goodbye to all of us.  She sang the song to us.  She is such a great person and I’m definitely lonelier here without her.  Ty, Marty, Tara and myself really got along well.  It’s so hard losing such great friends every week.  It’s not getting any easier.  It’s difficult to get so attached and grow to really love everyone here and then compete against them all.  It’s a very bittersweet situation.
 
       Anyway…. Later

For Tara:
From doorway to doorway Street corner to corner with the neon ghosts- in the city and she says stay with me, stay with me beautiful girl.

Top 10 and still going!!! The other night we went out to a bar. Everyone got pretty drunk … so Rock & Roll!!! It was great though, we got to enter through VIP, pictures were taken for some fashion magazines, and us girls got to meet Hugh Hefner!! It was fun.

 

Next performance show I'm singing "Get Back" -- the first Beatles tune on the show, I'm honored. At first I thought it might be a little too mellow but then I decided to just embrace that and make it soulful and groovy. I'm happy with it at the very least. I'm still not sure what to wear yet though … Anyways … feeling good about what's going on around here.

Well, what a doozy that last elimination show was. And just when we  thought this experience couldn't get any harder!

 

After Tuesday's performances, I knew that I probably wouldn't be in the bottom 3 if the world was basing their voting on the specific performances. I thought that I could have done better but that I did fine. When the 3 were announced it was very upsetting. I really didn't want Heather to leave here, especially.  She was a great friend and energy in this house for me. Both Heather and Daphna are really inspiring people. Anyway, when Heather did her performance it was ANOTHER song where the highs were high and the lows were low, and she seemed kind of nervous. Daphna rocked her song and Jessica performed totally sexy. Anyway, everyone knows what happened, two people eliminated!! I could not *&!?=* believe it!! I thought Tim was joking at first when he said it. The total silence on the crowd. Everyone was totally surprised. I had a rough night last night dealing with the loss of two great friends. I love you guys. And in perfect Suzie style I cried again!! It feels nice to release sometimes because this situation comes with stress like no other!!!

 

Until next time … Peace